Matthew...I can relate to what you're saying. I have experienced some challenging feelings very similar to what you describe. Having said that, it did get easier over time for me. It helped me to come to the belief that I am allowed to deceive others about this very personal issue. It does not really hurt others to act as though this hair is growing from my own head. We are taught to be honest when we are kids, but some lies are less problematic than others. This one is fairly harmless, I think. Having said that, I do believe that there is a very advanced stage of hairwearing psychology (that few people reach) in which a person can admit it freely to others. I think JRob, Tom Bongi, and a few others who regularly post here have reached that stage. It requires giving up some ego that most of us hold onto very tightly. There was a guy named Shifty who used to post here. He was a great guy. He used to wear or not wear his piece depending on his mood or the occasion. In any case, I think that the first piece is the hardest. So I doubt you'll be tortured to this degree ever again after this initial stage.