You are a true gentleman, I really appreciate your feedback.

You are probably right I guess. I used to not feel good but I didn't feel bad about how I looked either so I was my usual self, cracking jokes, being kind to people, whatever it was it worked. I hope that I don't hold the bitterness inside after I look more respectable and can move on and be that happy go lucky person again. It's been such a long time I don't know!